Dying Inside (Death Before Dishonor)

I'm out of answers I can't explain this shit What did I do to deserve this mess Turmoil finds a way to plague my days There's no way out of this fucked up place I look ahead, maybe I'm just blind Looking back, it fucks up my mind My dreams are shattered No words can describe The way I feel The thoughts I hide I went to far too far this time Why can't I find What is my fate I pay no mind It's a fucking lie nothing but a lie Can't see beyond, beyond my eyes This is too much I'm dying inside