Father (Timo Tolkki)

The smell of your breath, it makes me sick Your naked body lying on the floor I want to kill you but you did it yourself You killed my innocence You drunken fuck I hate you I piss on your grave and curse your memory I was always there in the family hell I was in your way and you hit me You cut your wrists and jumped from the 4th floor I was the last one who saw you alive I hate you I damage you I bury you I kill you I wish you would have been there to watch me grow Guiding me with wisdom, love and patience Telling me that you love me and showing it to me Making this world a safe place to be You hurt me so much that I don't know if I'm ever gonna be whole But I want you to know that I'm gonna try Still after all that you did I miss you And the rose and the letter that I brought to your grave Tells you about my longing So I say goodbye to you now after 23 years You were just a moment of my life and I got to continue Maybe one day I will be able to forgive you Until then goodbye