Change (Staind)

If ever, you had said to me before That I would live this life That I am livin' now I guess, it's all so strange To feel the way I do inside And have so much that I could feel Some pride for in my life So why is it that I feel like this? How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me To torment again and torture me like It used to I try and try to break away From all the hate, I'm feelin' For everyone of you that's ever Done me wrong I need to justify the reasons For the way I'm livin' I guess, I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me To torment again and torture me like It used to So now the waves they have subsided And my soul is bleeding, I can't take away All the shame I feel, forgive me How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me To torment again and torture me like It used to