Picking Up Pieces (Blue October)

I really need to talk with you I keep stepping on the vein That keeps my lifeline flowing thru I wanna be your perfect stick of glue But I don't feel perfect at all Sad and insecure flaw I find it hard to hold conversation I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away Its not you its strictly me in this situation I'm wondering will it ever go away...just go away Sometimes I feel like weeping Awake and when I'm sleeping Perfecting how to put a game face on This puzzle I've been keeping Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door Spilling out onto the floor How long will I be picking up pieces How long will I be picking up my heart I'll be as honest as I feel I'm getting more paranoid and I'm hearing things And they never turn out real It feels like my heart is made of pure steel It's just so heavy all the time Yea I'm scared of death And I'm scared of living I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving I misplaced my trust I watched my word begin to rust I'm a balloon about to bust I need a place for reliving But sometimes I feel like weeping Awake and when I'm sleeping Perfecting how to put a game face on This puzzle I've been keeping Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door Spilling out onto the floor How long will I be picking up pieces How long will I be picking up my heart How long (in another space and time) Will I be picking up pieces in the corner of my mind How long (its getting oh so hard to find) Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind But I still walk on