I've Lost (Judge)

If only I could put it into words The way I feel Telling myself that the situation's not real Lost and sometimes I feel I have nowhere to go Because you tell me it's wrong To let my feelings show I've lost my place to turn I know I fucked it up I turned away One too many times Suffering from an ego trip That left me fucking blind Friends are telling me The loneliness will go away But the memories will be there As long as the ink in my fingers stays I choose to stay away Because I want to keep control My head is thinking straight But my heart says explode The thought of someone else Is much too much And friendship means You're just beyond my touch