The Life (Criteria)

can you help this life a strangled by ??? from difference the window seat has become an unreflected form of blind forgiveness i know you should be hearing this in person but i'm not at home and you're not here so patiently i wait here by the phone for your call i fought life and i cannot lie i wish a ??? could cauterize a self inflicted open wound i know how to guess again you say that's life you say that's life all i know all i know is i'm hopeless unless i am ripping for you cause the life that you give me is wholesome every day i want to renew, renew, renew