Constant Collapse (Hotel Books)

There is nothing here for me, But I'm here for you, So I will never leave. And I'm starting to believe, Every time you said you loved me, You were just talking in your sleep. And I said I would die for you But that was before I knew That it's all you wanted me to do And time and time again, I can tell you I hate you, But that won't ever make it true Cause even during the good times When you kissed me, I didn't want to open my eyes, Because I didn't want to realize How hollow our love was, But now that it's over, I'm still here, and all I want to know was love. And I only talk about you in the past tense, Because through all of this mess, It's the only thing that makes sense. And all I do these days is want But I've settled for wishful thinking And neglecting, and justifying my emptiness, Because it's easier to see what you have When you can see what your neighbor lacks, I would give an arm and a leg Just to have my arm and leg back And I worked so hard to help you find truth, Just to slowly learn that your silence says Just as much about your character As your words do. We gave our love away. I always thought that I would be okay. I never thought I would be okay. Through this silent note, what constitutes the truth. Cause I can tell myself Time and time again, That I'm not making sense of this And that cross around your neck Was more hollow than your head But I still just wanted to follow you to bed. I never listened to my own voice, Maybe some of us embrace death, But some of us don't have a choice And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this But that doesn't mean I'm gonna change Because I never do, and you never did And it scared me away And that's why she still cuts your skin for you, And that's why that she's still in you, and her name is Acceptance. And she used to kill me, and now she is killing you. And through all this stress and carried out disastrous distress I've learned that I really don't like you, But I forgive you, Because I love you. I love you.