Now I Ask Myself (Lórien)

My mind is wandering in a deep sea In search for an island to come out of waves Things that would have become wind Behind my mainsail are pushing me within Last night my dreams told me Something about you and me Something forthright has to be Doom's whispers daze me I don't know what they are trying to tell me However the waves don't move me now I dream about full lips moving all night Yet the wind doesn't belly my sails From deep within my soul you still come out After a long time I still don't want To let let my true grief come out I can remember some whispered words Telling you are not what I really wish Why is my heart bleeding? Why is my soul suffering? Why? If I really don't need you Now I ask myself What would truly have grown When you wished to be with me