Mental Warfare (Starlito)

I spent all my time (Trying not to lose control) All my time I lost my mind (Trying not to lose my soul) Trying not to lose my soul, my soul When you alone the world seem so big, I feel like I'm by myself Cause I never hear from nobody, until they need my help I got 8 bills to pay today, and 2 more due on the 12th Half of 'em ain't even mine, hell I probably just smoke what's left I tell you what I ain't gon' do, feel sorry for myself I'mma do it 'til they say I did it to death, fall off, nah dog kidding yourself I'm at a crossroads where my choices determine my fortune It's either do business with vultures or unemployment Went to the doctor for one appointment, she said I was crazy Well not really, depressed and prescribed all types of medication I read the side effects, decided I wouldn't ever take 'em How ironic I wasn't ever patient just overly dedicated Can't please everyone, can't balance everything right now I don't even wanna try Swear a nigga so mufuckin' tired that I might not sleep when I die Riding 'round with this heat on my side Since I was younger I had beef and all my pride Cause these niggas think I'mma let it slide My homies probably think I won't ride I just think that I think too much On top of that I still drink and get high So fuck it, it's an eye for an eye, now the blind lead the blind Now you losing control, losing yo soul, losing time Got off your grind, you lost yo mind, I spent all of mine trying not to