Wishlist For The Drowning

The Saddest Landscape

you can't feel this weight all eyes on me now 
every glance is another slit in my wrist
its all accidents and splendor four pills
that you have never seen skin that shade of blue 
before or felt breath that cold i guess
that it never touched you in quite the same way 
it all falls down one by one it all adds up 
i thought that you knew that living on the edge was all i 
ever do. 
it never touches soft enough and you would never let me 
give up 
no matter how much i wanted to and someday you will know 
that all of my sleepless nights 
and tear stained pillows were never meant for you to 
understand 
and even though it seems like i'm always falling apart 
i'm still standing on these broken legs just hold on. 
just hold on. i'm still living at all cost