Dragons (you Know I Love You)

Orange 9mm

There are certain times 
When I wished I wasn't so alive,
And I would take it out on people 
Like they were dead
I blow them away with words so red,
Chops their skulls from their shoulders,
And they run circles 
Till they fall off the face of the earth
It only works if I know enough 
About you to pierce your heart,
Your soul, and if you've pierced mine
It only works if you've touched me 
Soft with patterns of trust
I disengage the bond 
If my paranoia seeps to the surface like vomit
Why do you even bother?
It happens when I hate myself to the bone
Broken mirror I feel alone
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home 
Away from your prying eyes?
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home 
Away from my worldly disguises? 

Deep thought crushes me 
With bombs and ill-will 
Feeds on interpretation until 
I'm inhuman, a beast
I resent you for your cold streak
Backwards I walk, talk, and think 
I lose myself in a cradle of a sadistic hate
I slowly shake
It rings in my blood, and I salivate 
Like a chorus of cats in heat,
For the slightest contact, 
With my sharp long looks and calls
I starve for attention
I run from myself towards a wall
There's no escaping me, 
I jump and stall
Your hand still clutching my ankle,
I viciously let go with thoughts, 
Yells, rivers, translations of my life from hell,
In the split second before 
The concrete smashes my face
They cut you deeply 
I smell your blood like a fiend, 
And reach even deeper,
I masturbate mentally 
With the strange power pain has blessed me with
I can't stop until you hit the floor
My arms I hold out, 
I let you fall through them
Secretly smiling I bring you down 
To my level of broken-ness 

We're such dragons 

Maybe if I loved myself more 
I could stand to look myself in the eyes 
And wipe away those sharp tears
I could blow you away, 
For how you hurt me
You lock yourself in a path, 
If you feel I don't translate 
Into your language at the time
I needed you immensely
Stuck to your guns, 
You watched from outside
I was melting
Now shuffled by the world 
You reach out for sympathy?
With my eyes I remind you 
Of scars only seen by God,
Who keeps account of each souls pain 
By weighing the bags that have grown so big,
They almost block my vision
I want to fuck you over with each decision
I'm an animal when I feel unnoticed, 
Unaccepted by those I build homes for in my heart
Wrecked I check myself into your mind, 
And you do the same at the same time
We recklessly crash through memories 
Spilling them in bursts, 
Like long-held desire
We hesitate then reach for each other
Time instantly pauses
Stuck leaning forward, 
Our position slowly spins three hundred and sixty degrees
I see the thoughts in the back of your mind, 
The same way I see my crimes against your spirit
I smell you bloody 
As guilt tints my vision towards reality,
I see the one of your tears inches from the floor
I lunge, grab it, it glistens stuck in the air
Then hide it from the world's stare 

We're such dragons
(You know I love you)
We're such dragons