So In Vain

Chemistry

On a night alone, I am thinking about you 
In my room, I was passing time differently 
You had left behind a stain and traces of lies 
You left me, in the pitiful darkness 

Depression and difficulty 
With a "For starters..." 
Mourning "This is the prime of my life..." 
Even if I get hurt... 

Telling me of your lies 
Was the last kindness you did me 
You were silent, pretending to be hurt 
Even now, I remember your last bit of cunning 

On a night alone, there's something I'm searching for 
Always, in my room, there's a song I could hear 
You left behind a meagre voice 
You left me, in the quiet darkness 

The only one who changed was me 
I thought this, but still 
The futileness that I realized I won't change 
And the loneliness that I drag along with me, now these 
are all that is left over 

The disappointment of love and it's importance 
Waking up to "that time..." 
When I calm down with "one more time" 
Even if I get hurt... 

I was dependent on the lies of you, who permitted 
yourself 
To have a bad attitude on purpose, the lonely shackles 
Of my cowardly self 

Your lies were the last kindness 
That you did me 
I let you pretend like you were hurt 
Even now, I won't forget your last bit of cunning 

I ran away from you pretending to be hurt 
Traces of fake tears are left over, even now 

I feel like I miss you 
Your song remains the same 
I can't be without you