I Hope He Kills You

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I won't say “I hope your happy with him”. 
I promised myself this year I would tell the truth. 
I’ll pretend my heart’s not breaking. 
It’s taking everything I have not to call you back. 
I hope he breaks you down. 
The next time you call, I won’t be around. 
No one ever made me feel like you did 
and now I’m struggling to feel anything at all. 
It may sound mean like I’m not understanding. 
I understand it all too well and I hope that you fall. 
You’re always on the wrong end of the turnpike. 
I want to choke myself to death with the phone line. 
“Go your own way and I’ll be with you”, 
(FSF - Wearing Thin) but nothing that you ever say could make me hate you. 
Don’t want to laugh last, I don’t want to say “ I told you so”. 
I want you to call me back and say “I love you”, because I’ve got nowhere to go. 
These nights spent alone without you are dragging me down. 
Though I know that this seems bitter, 
It's how I get through these nights without you. 
I hope that this doesn’t come out wrong 
but I’d do anything to make you feel on top of the world, 
and I’ll still be here just like I have always been.