Resignation

As Autumn Calls

Living a life such as mine
Is it living at all
Pain, sorrow and misery
The only constants I know
In the void of my soul
There is nothing left to give 
No emotion to speak of
Isolated from the world
Like a leaf on the wind
Drifting through time…
I can't remember the last time
I shared an honest smile
Or felt the tears roll down my face
I would welcome happiness and sorrow
Just to feel something again
Oh I would love to feel 
Deeper I fall into the abyss
Shades of black and gray
Overwhelming emptiness
Hides the light away
You will never again
See the light
 Shinning in my eyes
Distant voices echo
Fragments of the past
Fading into nothingness
The hope that will not last
I see it clearly
In their eyes
Oh how they worry
My resignation
To accept my fate
I will resign to live
The life that I create
My judgment
To live within this shell
To live within the confines
of this mortal hell
They have tried to help me
Make no mistake
All I know is that
For me it is too late
So let me live my life
In my own way
I will live out my days
Until I fade away
Selfish indulgence
A much needed escape
An everlasting journey
Take me far away
Oh I will go there
Willingly
I welcome the change
Emotionless
The darkness which confines
Within this dead void
My empty shell resigns
Trapped in a dark and
cold abyss
The essence of my life
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