This Time

Depswa

I want to hurt you and don't know why 
Though i know it's not like me 
I can not help it, though I try to keep you away 

All this time i thought I knew who you were 
But this time all your words were just lies for demise 
And your thoughts were found unpure 
So when push comes to shove i found reasons 
To not work it out or relate 
And get off on the fear that i get when your near 
And the problems that I create 

This time, I think you'll finally see 
This time, I will not break 
This time, I'm smart enough to know 
There is only so much I'll take 

This time, I'm gonna make change 
This time, you're in my way 
This time, I will not play the same head trip on me game that you play 

Unresolved situations esculate 
Inside something brings me to push 
To find out what you can take 
When we run out of love and change seasons 
With our lives together at stake 
I'm aware of tears that I give when your near 
And the confusion that I make 

I want to hurt you and dont know why 
I can not help it, though I try to keep you away 

I want to hurt you 
I don't want to lie