Song For Katy

The Suicide File

It hurts sometimes to think about 
How far away this is from what you'd hoped for. 
The way things were supposed to stay. 
And though you learned a lesson and you took it with grace, 
I wish I could stop the cold hand of reality from hitting you in the face. 
But there is no sparkling clean solution. 
And shit isn't just gonna get resolved in a half an hour, 
With special guest stars and pearls of wisdom. 
So let's not kid ourselves here. 
You and I were swindled by an image that was so tantalizing 
And real that I could almost taste it. 
But now the stench of failure is worse than anything. 
It permeates everything I do. 
And I'm starting to realize that I'd rather have nothing than have a lie, 
And sitting waiting for a life that's already passed me by.