This Is Calm (Dallman Christopher)

So, this is calm Should I feel optimistic? Should I greet the sun with a smile? Because as it is I roll to my side And I lay there For a good long while So this is calm Should I feel ok? And should this 'ok' set my inspiration reeling? Should I feel like I am pulled in all directions I feel no pull I feel nothing I ride the train from Queens to Morningside I keep my eyes straight ahead, keep my face dignified But is this linear or a downward slide? This is calm When I asked you to leave You threw your wine at the wall And it bled down, red on white My stomach did not turn I could not match your tears I just stood there thinking, 'what a beautiful sight!' I ride the train from Queens to Morningside I keep my eyes straight ahead, keep my face dignified But is this linear or a downward slide? This is calm I guess I should feel like I can do anything But, I can't do anything at all I can't do anything but fall down on my knees at the whims of my dreams I can't do this to myself anymore Stay so strong and still This is my voice! I wonder why I can't feel this I wonder why I can't feel this I wonder why I can't feel this Questions in my throat I don't know how I don't know how to live But I will learn To live To stand To breathe To taste To love I will move on