Forgive Me (Hot Rod Circuit)

I've never seen so clearly Cause I was focused on all the wrong things And then [?] inside of me Cause I was drowning in this deep dark sea Of guilt and shame and self regret I thank the lord that I'm not dead yet I like to sing and whiskey, But my body is tired and I'm over it, It's time for me to be The best that I can be Things won't stay the same 'Cause I need to make this change I'm content and I'm finally letting go My baby left me with a heartache, With empty hands and a feeling I can't shake. I'm such a [?] can't see the sinking ship, I shake and do [?] as I abandon it Wish all get up to the summer playing It lasted longer than I ever could have dreamed I prey to lord my soul to take, And beg forgiveness as I run towards the burning gates It's time for me to be The best that I can be Things won't stay the same 'Cause I need to make this change I'm content and I'm finally letting go When I couldn't be what you wanted me to be needed a change But couldn't find the words to say [?] If it was meant to be we'll have to wait and see