The Flight (Lincoln to Minneapolis) (Blue October)

No joke took a breath and then awoke I was standing in an airport looking like a joke Saying "Sir, can you help me? Ma'am could you please?" So they led me to the pay phone Flaggin' down the police "Mr. Officer I know who I am. But the rest of me, My memory, I just don't understand I do know that I'm unsafe, man with a plan, Of gettin' on a plane Fly away to kill a man" Like a freight train threat to myself I gotta history of blackouts, bad mental health so… Both cops each arm alarm No harm disarm pat down do the body check Next thing I was walking on the airfield Back seat I was headed to the hospital I’m sorry for the drama that I bring Through the screen he said "Son you did the right thing" Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you can stand with your dick in your hand Why you acting like a pussy, man? Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you can stand with your dick in your hand You acting like a pussy, man I was faithful to the wifey now we separated Used to try to win her back I underestimated Like a stone sinks down into the complicated fact That you gave that ass up and never fucking dated See you're better than that You're a diamond he's a rough real tough, man Call a brother back Just a pussy with a dick Stand up and be a fucking man Hiding from the husband Scared to make a peep and Livin' up in Lincoln Now I'm in the deep end Think I'm gonna break in smash your fucking face in Cut you up with lemon juice And watch you try to fuck then Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you stand with your dick in your hand Why you acting like a pussy, man? Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you stand with your dick in your hand Acting like a pussy, man Is that beat up...is that beat up yet? (please help me understand) (why can't talk man to man) Is that beat up...is that beat up yet? I wish that I were man enough To turn my back and leave To forget all the tricks you pull, And hide them in my sleeve I know what's best for table play, I know what's best for me I know this life is way too short, to let you kill a dream. I know you're capable to only love me when I’m there I know it's hell to keep the peace Inside your heart and head But I'm always gone and what you're left with is my song You're sick of listening to anything turn me off instead. You used to call me cool, believed in what I'd say Never seen me as a failure or a mother fucking fake But over time we changed into this little ball of hate We shared a bedroom, But the bedroom had a bed we never made so I'm done with holding this in I'm done with being a friend I'd like it all to just end like brand new ink on a pen No one can stop me….try to stop me... Just try to stop me... Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you stand with your dick in your hand You're acting like a pussy, man Please help me understand Why you can't talk man to man But you can stand limp dick in your hand You're acting like a pussy, man