Live 4 U (Grae Jean)

It's kinda hard to explain but I been thinkin, haven't come to a decision Drinkin away the pain night after night, listen It's like I'm caught in the rain, that never stops and only follows me Wide hollow feelin of emptiness, nothing inside of me Drama lays my head on the pillow, but still no sleep Been walkin the Wonderland for 40 days and 7 weeks Just wonderin how good it would be, to finally say goodbye to everything that's goin wrong, God, especially me I want to let go, let my mind just finally be free Breathe with no echo, tomorrow won't be less without me I stay in wet though, only thing that keeps me on the side of the living is you, said the same thing to me too Otherwise, I'm just caught up in deception and lies I have days of just wakin and hatin the sunshine Hatin life itself, hatin death for takin it's time Lovin you enough not to commit the ultimate crime I sin in my mind though, visions of weaponry wettin me up Payin people off for settin me up Some crazy wild sick imagery, paintin pictures of bloody scenes Seems the only peace of mind's in dreams So I pray for never-ending sleep, but it never comes So I pray for being so weak, and givin up Friends say I live the party life, livin it up One hand on the glass, other on the bottle, fillin it up I want to leave so bad, but lovin you is enough to make a slow exit to Hell, would never leave you here by yourself Nobody else could keep me here but you Nobody else could wipe away the tears but you I love you too much I would, give my, life for you If you asked me too I would do, just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I sweat just to live for you Live for you Are you dissapointed in me? Twenty-three, can't get it together No money, no job, debt that seems to last forever I just want to make you proud someday Like acceptin awards that's in front of a crowd and say "Thanks" in front of a million people Tell you I've fallin victim to some evil things in the past My road's been short but rough; a lot of things you don't know even if you ask I want to tell you all but I can't, you're too precious for that Try and explain why your daughter is into rap I'm like guilt with a guilty conscience Emotional politics wild on me Constantly pregnant with a rowdy problem child in me I wonder if we switched places, changed the dial on me Would you rather be somebody else's mommy? Divorced probably Just show me, no apology needed, I understand the reason It's the quality of livin, and what you want for children I'm not givin it, but you're the kind of love that never gives up I would, give my, life for you If you asked me too I would do, just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I sweat just to live for you Live for you I promised I'm gonna buy you that house on the beach A whole damn street And give you grandchildren, two maybe three Build you a studio and get you back to recordin and singin whenever you want, give you whatever you want I know you miss the music too, you just put up a front But I can see it in your eyes, musical echo soul cries to be free Don't you worry about me I'm gonna be alright, when I'm in darkness in my life I just think different, like you taught me The way you do, shine different, they all can see I just want to tell you you're loved And anything that I can ever do for you is never enough It's never enough, it's never enough I would, give my, life for you If you asked me too I would do, just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I sweat just to live for you Live for you