The Deepest Ocean There Is (Tired Pony)

I've been terrified since you walked out the door And these were not the lies I'd told you once before And this is not the end it's still an outside bet I'm not taking off my wedding ring just yet And it's years since I took stock of it Seems that it's not come to much This is everything I ever owned Collapsed into the car I've been terrified for far too fucking long What is that thing I lack that makes you so damn strong Your letter in my hands is rolled into a ball With drunken comedy is thrown hard at the wall And it's years since I took stock of it Seems that it's not come to much This is everything I ever owned Collapsed into the car And the stitches are unravelling And the seams have all but burst Maybe all my years of travelling Have quenched a worn out thirst These years have flown by And these hands are shaking And I have no notion Of what happens next And there's a kind of freedom When I think of it But then the panic quickens And there is no solace