Farther from Home (From Ashes to New)

I lay awake and look at the ceiling and wonder why I'm so afraid to face all these feelings and want to die I'm out of place and nothing's appealing to stay alive Why try to face it when it's so easy to say goodbye It's all unfolding, it's so controlling It tries to pull me under, nothing's going right for me This tension's growing, it tries to hold me Hear me scream I'm taking over With my back to the ropes, I'm never letting go I'm moving closer Everything that I know is feeling farther from home I'm never giving in, This world I'm living in is losing color I'm taking over With my back to the ropes, I'm never letting go I try to make the changes, it's so hard to sway my mind There is no way to make it but to leave these scars behind Within my thoughts are racing, I'm too far away at times I drive myself insane, it's tearing me apart inside It's all unfolding, it's so controlling It tries to pull me under, nothing's going right for me This tension's growing, it tries to hold me Hear me scream I'm taking over With my back to the ropes, I'm never letting go I'm moving closer Everything that I know is feeling farther from home I'm never giving in, This world I'm living in is losing color I'm taking over With my back to the ropes, I'm never letting go I take a deep breath down inside I shake and try to breathe but I Hate the way that I lived my life And it seems All the lies that I try to hide Remind me of what I left behind Unwinding thoughts inside my mind Hear me scream I'M SCREAMING OUT LOUD It's all just weighing on me It's all just weighing on me I'm reaching out I'm screaming out loud