So In Vain (Chemistry)

On a night alone, I am thinking about you In my room, I was passing time differently You had left behind a stain and traces of lies You left me, in the pitiful darkness Depression and difficulty With a "For starters..." Mourning "This is the prime of my life..." Even if I get hurt... Telling me of your lies Was the last kindness you did me You were silent, pretending to be hurt Even now, I remember your last bit of cunning On a night alone, there's something I'm searching for Always, in my room, there's a song I could hear You left behind a meagre voice You left me, in the quiet darkness The only one who changed was me I thought this, but still The futileness that I realized I won't change And the loneliness that I drag along with me, now these are all that is left over The disappointment of love and it's importance Waking up to "that time..." When I calm down with "one more time" Even if I get hurt... I was dependent on the lies of you, who permitted yourself To have a bad attitude on purpose, the lonely shackles Of my cowardly self Your lies were the last kindness That you did me I let you pretend like you were hurt Even now, I won't forget your last bit of cunning I ran away from you pretending to be hurt Traces of fake tears are left over, even now I feel like I miss you Your song remains the same I can't be without you