Until Now (Christine Lavin)

"Yes, I know I drink too much", he says "But it's under control I've never picked a fight with a stranger I've had no accidents on the road It doesn't interfere with my work It eases the strain I make more money than I ever did No one has ever complained" Until Now And I wonder just what your motivation is Until Now I never thought of you as one who'd meddle in my business He is not my boyfriend He's not related to me I have known him for a long, long time I'm worried by what I see There's a nervous edginess that Only drinking smoothes When I question him about this, he says "What are you tryin' to prove?" Until Now I have thought of you as the non-judgemental type Now I see you've been reading too many magazines Believeing all that self-help hype He's the life of the party He's everybody's pal He used to act like he liked me Until Now Now we're waiting for the axe to fall The phone call that shatters the night Or maybe he will surprise us all Wake up one day and see the light So I'm standing in the shadows With open eyes and closed mouth Knowing every day that passes He's farther away from drying out Until Now I was able to look the other way Until Now I could pretend that what I thought didn't matter anyway