Remembering (van der Veen Astrid)

there was a time when you used to hold me to make me feel safe and there was a time when you used to tell me stories and there was a time when you used to sing me your songs but I can't remember the last time no then there was a beautiful day when it all got to me it all made sense but just a little too late it could have been seen but there was no one to look at me now this beautiful day changed my life you did not keep your promise and you never looked at me cause then you would have seen that you and the one that's been gone did everything wrong for me to handle it all and all alone because no one feels more scared than I was when lying in bed all alone covered under the sheets cause the screaming was too loud trying to forget the anger I saw when beating the both of us afraid of you for going upstairs holding my hand telling it won't happen all again now that's the fear that I feel when lying in bed remembering and reliving every part that's kept in my heart which I wish I never had because then I wouldn't be able to feel the hurt and the pain knowing there is someone to love me for real now the pain that I feel when lying in bed lying in bed all alone remembering