Real or Not Real (All Caps)

Is this real or is this not real I cant tell how I'm supposed to feel They say I'll heal That I'll learn how to deal But I can't handle all of this When I'm with you I want to kill you Peeta stop they've really messed you up I have this memory that I loved you Peeta that's real you really did But how I can trust when I'm so confused Peeta believe me I'm right here for you I'm right here for you I know I act tough but inside I'm really scared I only get by thinking of those nights we shared it's really selfish but I know I'm gonna need you so help me win this and I promise we'll pull through